Hello all..
Long time no update..

I title the entry up and down.. mostly because lately I have felt like I have been on and up and down roller coaster ride..

I have been pressured to act in ways that I should not have ..
I have done some things that I should not have..

I tell you what.. I feel like World War III is going on inside me..

I am constantly being tempted .... I guess I am kinda to blame to.. Considering I find myself in situations where Temptation is easily knocking at the door.. Most of the time I don't answer.. But sometimes.. its just hard.. you know?
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I started hanging out with Kayli.. Really been trying to witness to her..because all and all she is a bit confused.. but I think me just being a friend is really helping her.. I think she is really confused by my behavior.. Meaning I am not perusing her sexually.. I really think she finds that odd.. and for that reason.. she is attracted to me.. and what I am all about.. I am not pushy.. I don't force anything.. and I am completely chilled.. She can digg it.. fo sho..

So about a month ago.. it was raining late one night.. not to late.. around 10:30 or 11 and yeah I got the call from her.. I said we should go shoot some pool.. so we went to Arc.. accept we didn't play pool.. We actually just sat in the parking lot.. it wasn't till we got to Arc that the Lord.. put me there for a reason.. I felt this after I spilled the Gospel on this girl.. I don't know how it came up..why it came up.. but God made it come up.. so after that.. You better believe I been praying for this girl..

I don't feel like I want a intimate boyfriend/girlfriend relationship with this girl.. I think though feelings are going on her side.. and it doesn't help when I send mixed signals sometimes.. but once again.. sometimes I get into situations were I just lose myself in this moment.. and I tend to send a signal that I shouldn't be sending.. I have gotten better at this ove r the past week.. If I truly have those feelings for her later.. I will act on them.. otherwise I am just going to be a friend.. a loving friend ya?

How about this Christmas too.. my gosh The Lord has blessed me left and right.. up and down.. I feel like I used a Game Genie and the Lord was just like alright.. No seriously the past few days I have been dropped with blessings.. Last night I went out to the Church at like 2 A.M. and just prayed and gave thanks.. and just took that time to really talk to God.. I had to get away from everything that was distracting me.. and that worked.. I did it again tonight..

I'm really praying for direction.. were The Lord really wants me to be.. I don't have a clue.. so what should I do.. just act.. and hope that is what God wants me to do? I reck n I will give it a go..

I really don't want to do networking in all honesty.. I don't feel like I am really cut out for it..haha that's rich right.. Just graduated and i feel like it just isn't for me.. Your thinking "Kevin that is horrible, not funny" Actually I am not worried.. I don't feel like its up to me to decide anymore.. So we will see what happens..

I might go back to school..
I might shoot a movie..
I might get a job in networking..
I might get into missionary work..

Whatever I do.. I will keep running the race to Christ..

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Love and Grace
Kevin Catt.

My last night at ITT was Friday, my gosh believe it or not I will miss that place.. I wouldn't really call it a school.. i mean it was a school just not the traditional College campus that you would associate college with.. I have earned a Associates degree in Computer Networking Systems.. It is a somewhat exciting time in my life..

I don't know if this is the direction I want to go.. I did go to college for computer networking but I know that is not something I am truly passionate about.. Honestly if I were to say one thing that comes to mind, besides serving our Lord.. I would have to say Film.. Directing, editing, writing, I enjoy doing it all.. and perhaps I could make something good if I really put my mind to it..

I have made some films in the past and they all received decent reviews.. My senior video starred Chris Armineo.. one of my best friends at the time.. I called it playing your client.. It was a lot like the movie Phone Booth but with my own little twist to it.. Armineo is in California looking for work as an actor.. I hear he is an extra in a few big budjet films.. But I can't be to certain..

I think I am going to start writing a screenplay.. perhaps God is pointing me in that direction.. That is really something I pray about every night.. some direction.. I am ready to serve my purpose the Lord has made me for.. Thing is.. right now it feels like a mystery.. and I don't feel like I have gotten much feedback that I can interpret or anything..

With me graduating that opens some time up for me.. to get involved in other things..



So I am checking out Good News Jail and Prison Ministry.. I am going to attend the training and I figure if It isn't for me.. at least I got some information out of the deal.. and I will.. No charge.. which is a blessing in itself.. I think I could really help these people find Christ because even though my story is probably not near as intense.. it is a story ALL can relate too for the most part.



I have met a girl at SCM, her name is Naomi.. Now back in September when i started going to these classes.. I really didn't know what to expect.. Here is a guy who just became born again in July..and by August he is already signing up for a Bible Doctrine and Old Testament class.. I felt overwhelmed by the whole thing but I said I got this..and for a while I could keep up.. now I am a little behind haha..

Anyways from what I know Naomi's story is pretty amazing in my eyes.. She has been a Missionary most of her life and for the most part hasn't even lived in this country.. Her family has lived in Hong Kong, and some parts of China that I can not recall at this time..

What fascinates me about this family..and some other families is the way they are.. truly compassionate caring people.. I can see it in there eyes.. and they speak it from there tongues...

Now me myself.. I was a dude who wanted nothing more then to benefit myself with the worlds candy.. lusting desires for woman, drugs and alcohol parties, and the dirtiest mouth you could imagine.. I would cuss so much that I made Jonah Hill from Superbad look like Big Bird from Sesame Street..

None of these people had that in mind.. they lived differently and it soo showed.. they have a love for the Lord and the Lords people that I can see and pickup from a mile away.. I think that is amazing in all honesty.. and I strive to be like that kind of person (an imitator of Christ) I have my bumps and sometimes I derail..but I am working on it.. rest assured..

Naomi has joined up with Operation Mobilization, which is a worldwide ministry that travels by ship and spreads the word of Jesus Christ. Naomi isn't getting paid.. In fact she has to come up with sponsors to help in supporting her two year trip.. The Lord is really at work in this situation.. She went from like 26% covered, to over 40% in a matter of one day! I feel like the Lord was telling me to give some .. so that is what I did.. I hope my financial assistance helps and future aid I will give to her.. If you are reading this and want to help this girl out please contact me at videokevin@gmail.com.. She needs all the help she can get..

I may do it one day.. but for now.. I will just let the Lord guild me where he wants me.. if that is the future route so be it.. I look forward to it if it is..

Looking back and reflecting on my life.. its really amazing to think how far I have come..and the changes I have went through throughout my life.. I am blessed.. and I think the Lord..

Keep the faith.. Christ is coming back..
Kevin out..

I ll write more on my route later.. but I just wanted to say..

Mike is coming to church with me..
I have a feeling Jesse will be soon myself..

I plated the seed in Jesse way back in August.. sure enough it is growing..

Good day.

My two year stay at ITT is growing close to a close..
I will say I am going to miss that place.. I have had some good times there..believe it or not..

No doubt I am not done with College.. I believe I will go back.. not in the area of networking but elsewhere.. I am due for a little break from school though I believe..

Since 1993 I have been in school..

Reflecting all the way back to kindergarten.. I was quite a character.. I rocked a Mullet.. and loved the out doors.. oh video games were always a part of my life.. I rocked them.. you throw anything at me and I beat it as a kid.. it may of took me a while but I took out every boss in Megaman, Super Metriods long storyline, and fighting games, I got those down too..

I remember I got sent home for giving a kid the middle finger in elementary school.. but come on, I didn't know what that meant?

I bounced around from Patoka Indiana, to Mt Carmal IL and by 1st grade I hit another school, I actually slept in a Utility closet.. but it was my room so I didn't care.. My Cat who I grew up with and just died about 3 years ago.. kept me company.. I loved that cat..

After 2nd grade my mom met John Michael and at that point she remarried and we moved in with him at his house in Grayville IL.

1996 was a great year, third grade felt like the most independent year of my life up until then.. I hung out with older guys and we camped out, went fishing, and I met one of my best friends Tommy Conner.. I had never really had a friend like him.. we kept in touch for a very long time.. and I recently caught up with him over this last year.. The town was population 2000 or something.. but lets face it.. to me I ran that town.. I did so much there..it was great..

1997 Mom got divorced and we made the trip back to Evansville.. I had lived in Evansville in the past.. but I was four years old at the time.. so it was old school.. 4th grade at Hebron was a complete 180.. the people in Evansville were not the same.. so it kinda took me a while to adjust.. and to be honest I really missed Grayville.. I would pick up a good friend Wes French.. we were loving life.. he would eventually get me into skating.. but that was later..

1998 after we moved into the house I now live in.. I lived my Grandma Hilda Chapman.. God bless her because she kept me in check for that time I was there..

Stockwell was 5th grade.. by now I had adapted to Evansville.. but honestly I was getting sick to my stomach school hopping so much.. it was gross at times but I got used to it.. Met Devin Burke.. and I suddenly became a computer nerd/wizkid I guess.. I really was fascinated by how they worked and the multimedia features behind them..

6th Grade I actually went to Plaza, where Stockwell and Hebron went to school so I knew pretty much everyone that went there.. Hung out with Wes and some other dudes 6th grade.. got into Aggressive inline skating and that would take off throughout the years..

Wes was my best friend at the time.. he got me going to Crossroads Christan Church.. I went to this event in like March of 2000 called Believe.. I will never forget it.. I had broken my arm from skating at the skate park over at Swonder.. I clipped it on a rail..and broke it.. So I took this trip to St Louis.. and it was pretty cool.. really spirtual..
at the time.. I was just having a good time.. there was some significance there.. but for the most part.. I did my own thing..One 5 Oh played and I actually found there live cd not to long ago.. Believe 2000 live was what it is called.. memories.. haha

Yeah as a kid in this time of my life.. I was for God.. but I didn't understand anything.. I kinda just jumped on the bandwagon..

It would take a loong time before I rethought my faith truly..

To Be Continued..

July 9th, 2008 - October 8th, 2008
Almost Three Months.

What a great feeling....
People See Change in me..
Some people are thrilled..
Others are lost to what has happened to me..
My Dad is... I'm not sure..
My Grandma saw it coming..
My sister says one baptism was enough..
I see things a lot clearer now..
Things that were hidden from sight are clear in form..
When your eyes begin to become opened to what is happening..You tend to wonder how you were in it..

You can't see outside a closed box..
Open the box and step outside .. Things make more sense..
You tend to wonder how you live with yourself.. in what you have done..
Sometimes I find the transformation unbelievable..
Then I realized I believe.. and that made the transformation..

Thank you again Lord Jesus for showing me the way to you
Good Looking out ;-)

I got a new pool table for free.. Yeah not..one but two free pool tables..

Haha I went over to my neighbors to help him move.. The guy is old and it seemed like he could use a hand.. Never really talked to the guy before but I offered to help him out.. well he was pretty much done.. but we got to talking and what not.. He told me why he was moving and what not.. Two days later he needed to help moving his safe.. so My mom's boyfriend and sister's boyfriend helped him move the safe..and he hooked us up with two pool tables!

One is built up in my garage.. It is not to shabby.. I need to tweak it a bit though.. it still seems a little off.. God hooked us up for real.. Anyway.. Goodin got out of Stepping Stones Saturday.. he hit up church.. It was good to see him.. He also came by and played some pool.. Ill be honest.. I schooled him for the most part.. but he did get a few wins on me..

Checked out a Hardcore show at Resurgence over on west side Saturday Night.. That place is not to shabby.. Like a warehouse.. but its a church.. that used to be a bar? Well that is at least what Rachel told me.. saw Zach Willet there.. Caught up with him.. Good stuff..

Headed over to Tabs party shindig.. Me and Natalie ended up going to Sonic and MC. Donald's.. Came back there talked to both of them for a while.. Not going to lie.. I can talk up a storm.. It was pretty good night..

Today I worked.. and hit up my classes at CFC.. I was talking to Naomi.. Girl in my class.. She really got me thinking about some Misson Trip stuff.. That has been in the back of my head.. How cool would that be? Girl I think is 18 and she is leaving for two years to travel around the world.. Pretty tight! I be down for an adventure like that.. Farthest I have went is probably Chicago.. lol.. I know right?

I checked out Josh's small group Wednesday, that was also tight.. I think Ima make it a weekly thing..considering my Small group never started.. heh. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- So I am working on a research paper for my English II class.. My topic is pretty good.. and pretty controversial..

My gosh it has been a quite awhile since I have been on here...

Life is pretty good right now..besides a few minor things I have been alright and doing just fine.. Kinda blows that someone managed to take off with my wallet that worked at Taco Bell.. I mean they could of had the cash but did they really need to take my whole wallet.. ahh I was a bit angry and upset but I am getting over it slowly....

On a good note my journey is going strong.. My friend Goodin is getting the help he needs at stepping stones and I am so thrilled about that.. he should be out Saturday so we are going to kick it! Everything has kinda fallen apart on him.. I really believer the Lord is working on him to make him a better person... I keep my prayers on him strong and it seems like he is doing a lot better.. besides being emotionally dependent on his ex girl friend to comfort him..

I told Goodin he needs to give some space between them.. that when he does get out of S.S he will show her that he is a changed person.. and that he is not just running through the motions.. (Yeah, some of that came from a movie I saw ;-) )

ITT is about over and I am so happy.. I am ready to be out of that place.. and just ready to do what I have to do.. Even though Networking isn't something I am really wanting to do .. I think in time I can grow to like it..

Some of me just wishes I could go back in time.. and just do a lot of things differently.. then again I am blessed that the Lord has touched my heart at such a young age as 21..

Speaking of the Lord.. My small group still as yet to pick up.. kinda blows.. It should pick up sometime..

My Bible Doctrine and Old Testament classes are great.. I always look forward to going to them.. and seems like each night I tend to gain so much knowledge.. I am meeting some great people in that class as well as in the church itself..

Saturday night I was helping greet before service and I got to know Jerry.. Really good guy.. I felt like I could just spill my story.. and I did.. he told me his and it was just really good to get to know the guy..

Honestly though my Grandma and Uncle have helped me out so much with my faith.. and what not .. I can't think them enough..

To top it all off me and my friend James Drake got together.. and man did we talk.. about 5 hours worth tonight.. He too is a believer.. and even before I was living the way Christ wanted me to live..we always talked.. really good friends..and I think we helped each other a lot tonight..

He wants to join the Class I go to on Sunday Nights and Attend Church with me on Saturday night.. Pretty cool stuff..

So everything is good.. God is answering my prayers.. He is blessed me with so much Wisdom and understanding I just don't know what to thank except.. Thanks Lord.. I show my love to you..
As always
Thank you Lord for showing me the Path to you..

Until Next Time..
God Bless

I am working on getting a new job away from the theater.. They are really chopping up my hours and .. I just need a new job if I am going to get out on my own..

My new life is continuing to be pretty swell.. I signed up for a small group and I am taking some bible classes so I can have better input on what I am reading and what not.. Good stuff..

Seems like me and Goodin are kinda kicking back on our own though.. We got to run into some more believers.. Cause I am going to be honest.. I really don't hang out with a lot of my friends I used to hang out with..

In fact I went over to Dustin's a few nights ago and it just is not the same.. more then ever now.. It just is not me anymore.. and I don't exactly feel to comfortable over there as I used to be...

The Change is great.. I just Pray for more friends that feel the same..

God Bless.

Long time no update but let me tell you whats been up..

Church is going great.. I am actually in the process of getting involved in a small group..and am taking a class over the old testament! I am siked for that.. I officially was baptized August 17th at Christan Fellowship Church and I just feel completed ever since.. I mean I can't decribe what it feels like to truly be a deciple for our lord Jesus Christ.. but I will tell you .. it is a good feeling..

My Uncle, Grandma, and Mother loved my testimony, I even got word that it might of been the best testimony spoken!, wow that makes me feel really great.. because if they were happy I can guarantee God was loving it! oh praise god! I am so siked.. sometimes its just hard to hold my excitement!

I pray for more knowledge and understanding of the word.. so I can truly bare witness to some people.. I talked a great deal to Jesse Shelton last week at Dustin's I had never been so deep with the Father in my life to someone.. and A woman actually heard me on the balcony of her apartment and above us and said "Your preaching the word, and doing well" or something to that extent I don't exactly remember .. but that fact that she said that gave me a good feeling that I was doing what God wanted me to do..

I could tell Jesse was a bit puzzled.. he was not seeing the same person he had seen in the past.. the past Kevin that smoked his life away and was nothing but a party.. that Kevin is looong god and is replaced with the Christ Kevin.. filled with The Holy Spirit and not wickedness and sin..

Although I did not get him to turn to the Lord that evening.. I planted the seed.. the seed that God will make grow when the time is right.. I believe that time will be soon.. or at least I can hope.. As I see Jesse more and more..I will speak about the lord.. everyone should know what he has done for me.. and what he can do for them!

I did not force it upon him.. for that would be wrong.. I simply planted the seed.. Later that night I was puzzled at myself.. I really didn't think I had it in me.. but the Holy Spirit took over and I just preached.. James who bared witness to my testimony to Jesse about our Lord and Savior.. knew what was up as well.. I am changed! and it is great!

May the days to come bring more understanding of God and his purpus for me.. I pray that I will hear is voice and be guided by him.. for without him.. I am lost.. so by Faith ... I put my life in his hands.. I gave my life for him..as he gave his life for me.. its the least I can do.. he is the creator.. and there is no one else I would rather serve then the loving father and his loving Son Jesus Christ.. Thank you Lord for blessing me.. may I bare witness to more of what you are doing.. and be apart of it.. in my own unique way..

Its been a little bit since my last update and so much has changed..

As of Saturday.. I officially brought a person to lord Jesus Christ.. it was great.. and the funny thing is I prayed for the Lord to bring me some friends with the same purpose.. To share a love for Christ Jesus.. and learn about this man who Loves all!!!

I quite smoking cigs and am looking forward to being baptized.. I got one more meeting to attend and then I should be good to go.. I already have my testimony written out.. and I say.. its pretty powerful.. I can't wait to express it on camera Tuesday.. I feel it really is powerful stuff..

So Yeah aside from that everything is pretty good.. I just keep telling myself God loves me.. and my faith keeps growing.. I continue to change for the good..

This is true..

http://changedbychirst.livejournal.com/ <-- this is where I was and this is where I am now..

You remember that video game star craft? As a kid I was pretty obsessed with the game.. I always used the Power Overwhelming cheat to grow strong and become unstoppable..

I can say that term again .. In real life.. I feel overwhelmed with power.. by Jesus Christ.. I have been praying.. and my prayers are being answered ... its pretty wild how it all happened tonight..but that usually how it goes.. because I am consistently seeing our Lords work done on me..

Let me go into it a bit.. I came to the Lord last night with a powerful Prayer.. I prayed for faith virtue, more kindness, charity ... I experienced these all today..

When I got my paycheck from work I went over to a Christan facility called The Vineyard.. I picked up a heavy album by War of Ages, good stuff.. kind of hardcore I am into.. Christan stuff too.. But while I was there I was browsing books and I found something that would help me called.. "becoming a contagious Christan" its a book that will help me discover and develop my character also to build biblical truths.. good find.. I have yet to dig into it.. but after my realization tonight.. I will be getting into this book tomorrow..

So I hit up the Christan family bookstore after that and found another book that caught my eye.. its called FIGHT by Kenny Luck.. exposing the dark side of what is in this world..and how to fight it..

I went to the liquor store for my mom to get some beer after words for her and there was a couple there with there kid.. There car would not start.. they needed gas.. so I drove the dad to get gas.. His name was CJ I believe.. but yeah that was Charity to which I prayed for..

I went to church and got a great message about Noah and Holy Fear.. it was a powerful speech..

After that I went to work and started reading FIGHT.. let me tell you I was kinda nervous getting into this book.. it exposes Satan in ways that I might not be ready to see..but once again my Lord Jesus showed me a a guildline that I prayed for .. when I hit page 58.. a surgical guildline how to live by Christ pretty much.. that lead me to 2 Timothy 2:20-22 .. wow.. at that point I was shocked.. this book was linked to the book I bought before it..for what is was saying was the tools that I needed in the first book I bought!

I was once again greatful for this sign from God, Woah I said.. you did it again lord! thank you..

This is great... In time I will be better.. this is true.. Lord help me in this.. my love is resting in you .. and I am not going anywhere.. Power Overwhelming!