I have accepted Christ as my personal Savior, I am well aware that is only because of his bloodshed that my sins are forgiven and with faith in Him I am saved. I know this to be certain because everything aligns up properly to it. It took me twenty one years to really figure this and I can only think God because He showed it to me. My energy was off the charts when I was born again; if this were Dragon Ball Z I would have ascended and became a Super Saiyan. I was on fire with the Spirit and loved every minute of it. Time would play out and my faith would get stronger but just as I had a vulnerable moment Satan attacks and hits you were it hurts. Satan has low blowed me more times then I can even keep track of. The scary thing about how Satan works is sometimes you are fooled and are not even aware of what is taking place inside you. These past few weeks have been nothing short of chaos, Satan has thrown everything he can throw at me I feel; I have experienced the lowest of the low as far as depression, guilt, jealously, selfishness, prideful behavior, doubt, he just launched a whole arsenal of crap at me and I am left bruised and broken inside. I broke down the other day and cried. I don't know if I have wept that hard, it's been quite awhile if I had. I asked for mercy for my actions that God would put me back on the path, which is all I wanted was to give me that fire and desire I had for his will and to leave the worldly sinful thinking behind that was slowly creeping at my door. I would continue to just try to come to terms finally I am now beginning to feel God taking action inside me and helping me to fight the temptations and old ways that came out of nowhere. I am now beginning to understand why it is tuff for everyone to take up the will of God. Satan does not want anyone to do it, he messes with you more then ever when you become a Christian and you can't give in, so many people give in and now I can actually relate to them. The struggles we face as Christians are harsh and hard, but the war is already been won when Christ died on the cross. There is always hope and we must keep this in mind when we live out our daily lives, keep the mindset of Christ and follow Him, He will change your heart and you're life. We will have our ups and downs but the key is to keep going, and not stop. God has us all here for a reason; this whole sinful world that is not fair and is evil is not meant to last. We are just passing though this place and are on to greater places in the future. People need to know what reality is though our Love, which comes from the Father. Spread the word about Christ and save as many as possible, God wants it and He wants us to pick up where Christ left off. One more thing check this book, it's an intense read! God Bless
My father was once a serious Christian, read his bible and went the whole nine yards to live as God wanted him to. Time went on and I guess one thing led to another and before you know it he was an alcoholic who had so much hate in his heart, so much selfishness and greed. He never got over my mother and didn't treat her well to begin with. My father was never around really to spend time with his children. It actually took me years to realize that he wasn't the dad I wanted him to be. He sets in despair, swims in depression and misery, alone with his alcohol and dependencies for material things. Satan took him down hard and there he stays, not calling out for God for help as much as I told him too he sits and starves himself from any sense of communication with his Creator. I pray for him, may he come to the Lord and change his ways.
I will continue to grow spiritually though my studies for my biblical studies degree and though Gods word of course. I will stay on this path and rely on God for strength, I will continue to submit my life for his will and take up my cross. Away with selfish ambitions and stupid desires I must focus on what God wants me to do. My girlfriend wrote me and email that really hit home with everything. She doesn't know how much of a connection we share, most of the time we are experiencing the exact same problems or blessings at the exact same moments. Her email helped me to clear myself of my actions and I thank her for that. I feel God will make a difference though us in the future to come, I don't know when that day will come, but I am not slacking around anymore, it's on again and I am going full sail.