Running The Race

I google this stuff.. and read up and I just couldn’t believe what I was reading.. I kept saying to myself this doesn’t work.. no way.. but Dustin insisted I give it a try.. So I took it a step further and got a book entitled The Mystery Method .. Mystery was an incredibly awesome pick up artist that wrote a book on his formula for getting most females, especially the really attractive ones interested in you.. I read the book and thought no way but I will give it a shot anyway..

Dustin had heard of this material from Jeff J... We would become a trio with a the material.. but eventually just a duo with me and Dustin..

Anyway so I got this stuff down.. The thing about me is I can talk.. no doubt.. you get in a conversation with me I won’t shut up.. and that’s what this material was all about.. talking and getting the girl to jump through your hoops.. not hers.. Confidence and Cocky Funny attitude was key to Gaming.. and eventually I made it click for me.. it took some time and practice.. but I was on a social high.. that was way better then any weed I was smoking at the time..

Dustin was just funny.. and he def used that to his advantage when it came to gaming.. he was good .. no he was great.. and when we were both together at a party.. watch out.. you would think guys would get angry at us.. but no.. they loved us.. one reason because they didn’t see us as a threat.. The book walks you through how to handle any situation..

I knew what to say and when to say it.. I knew how to make myself appear to be a social butterfly.. which I believe I did become at one point in this game.. I was popular.. and everyone knew me.. Everyone liked me for the most part .. and I was just living it up.. strong.. Me and Dustin were a great duo.. There were a few other people that were gaming and loved us.. I actually had people coming to me for advice on how to do this or that..

So my social life went through the roof.. I was in love with this lifestyle.. it was grand.. I was being a cocky funny cute jerk.. and people loved it.. I eventually knew when a girl was interested in me and when she wasn’t…. it was awesome to know when a girl was into you.. and when she wasn’t.. I used all the tools and I didn’t hold back.. Drugs Social Life.. Beer Pong.. A best friend to share all my stories and come up with new tag team routines.. it was a glorious four months..

Then something started to happen.. It probably came about mid April.. def was there by June.. I started getting nervous.. Like I was thinking to much about this crap and that was a big no no.. you go with the flow.. you don’t think.. you just go.. it wasn’t a problem at first.. but that wasn’t all..

I went back and got new routines.. but something was holding me back.. I was having trouble being a cocky funny jerk.. up to this point my EGO was huge so I really wasn’t thinking about anyone’s feelings but my own.. I figured.. if they don’t like me whatever.. Plenty of fish in the sea.. they don’t know what they are missing but whatever.. I am over it..

Guess what? here comes my conscience condemning me for what I am doing.. it actually brought me pretty low.. and eventually I just had trouble doing what I was so good at doing before.. I didn’t give up though.. I still went at it.. and usually I would hit home when I comitted to the routine.. I was so angry at myself.. I kept telling myself what is the problem Kevin?.. you know this stuff like the back of your head!.. seriously?


I was still getting high and that was always fun.. but that started to wear out too.. like I just didn’t feel as good as I used too.. by June something was seriously up with me.. I wasn’t the Kevin everyone knew.. I kept it on the DL and played it off.. I was still cussing like a sailor and being a cocky big shot but what was happening was a work of the Holy Spirit..

I believe July 4th was the last night.. I would get stone cold drunk and stoned.. Me, Dustin and Shawn decided we were going out.. and me and Dustin had a solid routine that night for a party that was going on at Normandy Arms Apartments.. Shawn drove my car and took us to my Cousin Jeff Lipko’s girlfriends house in Mt Vernon.. We went up there and watched fireworks.. and I drank Yeager. I know that’s not how you spell it.. but you know what I am talking about.. the Black liquorish tasting stuff.. has a Deer on the front of it..

I was drrrrrrrrunk.. good thing I wasn’t driving.. we did that.. then we went to a girls house Dustin was gaming and got high.. smoked two Rellos not before almost dying on the way to get the Rellos.. she was a maniac driver but it was cool cause I was drunk lol..

So he ran game.. I won’t go into details but it didn’t work out to well for him.. so from there we went to my house I think.. and then back to his apartment..

Finally we get to the party.. I ran into some people I knew.. old skater friends Mike and Myles Barnett.. some other peeps.. it was a kegger and beer pong.. very nice.. but for me.. I didn’t run one routine.. could not get myself too.. it was like I was a little wusss.. it wasn’t happening.. I couldn’t get the momentum to do anything.. plus I was a little messed up still.. after that party.. I went back to Dustins.. and me and Shawn stayed up and had a long conversation about his family.. it was intense..

I was so upset at myself.. I let myself down and Dustin I felt.. it sucked..

Two or three days later… I was just chilling at my house.. I was all alone.. in my room I remember it was raining.. I was just browsing YouTube.. nothing big.. until something caught my eye..

I don’t know remember how it caught my eye… or how I even found it.. but this was a video that kind of pertained to the end times.. like the end of the world. .. ask me and I will be more specific on what I am talking about.. but the point is.. I was watching this video.. and during it.. I started to get freaking scared.. Someone was telling me.. something..

”Where do you stand?”
”Don’t you think its time to change Kevin?”

I was incredibly moved .. at that point I was terrified.. like I was peaking out the window and everything making sure I wasn’t going to die.. at that point..

I said out loud..
”I have to change”
”I have to come to terms”

My life depended on it.. And that’s exactly what the Holy Spirit said that day.. God tends to work in ways that you can’t describe until way later down the road..

I called my Grandma.. I knew she walked with the Lord.. and I just told her I needed to come over and talk to her.. she said okay that will be fine.. so I got over there..

I started talking about stuff I saw.. and I told her I was scared.. I need to do something.. My Uncle Frank Shane was there.. they told me what I needed to do..

I didn’t hesitate I knew the Holy Spirit came to me to do this.. not at the time.. but now I realize that is what it was..

So I was lead in Prayer..
And from that moment on..

I immediately felt revived.. my fear was gone.. everything was okay.. just like that.. Uncle Frank gave me a Bible.. it was a New Living Translation.. I started reading the Gospels.. John, then Matthew, then Mark I think.. then Luke..

At one point my Grandma said something I will never forget
”Beau, I knew what you wanted to talk about when you called, I had been praying that the Lord put a burden on your heart for a long time to come to him, and you did just that”

You got cold chills now don’t you?.. Praise GOD!

I stopped smoking weed.. Prayed about it.. and I was tempted to do it.. once.. I passed it up.. after that it was a breeze to give up.. Smoking cigs was different.. I knew that would be a challenge.. In my walk I realized that I am harming the Holy Temple inside me were Christ lives.. towards the end of July.. I burned a pack and claimed in prayer I am done.. I quit.. this is it..

That didn’t work I bought another pack.. but I didn’t finish that pack.. I gave it away.. then I bought another pack.. that would be my last pack.. I smoked about 7 or 8 of them.. and they HURT ME.. I was like daaaang.. so I burned that pack.. just to make a statement to myself and to God.. I am done this time.. FOR GOOD!

That was July 30th.. It wasn’t easy but God helped.. and August 18th I was Baptized in the Lake right behind my church, Christian Fellowship Church..

I believe it was a day later.. I did smoke one more Cig.. but have not had one since then.. and don’t plan on smoking anytime soon.. it isn’t worth it..

I sacrificed my old life to serve Christ.. and He has been blessing me ever since.. My prayers are being answered.. and my life is completely changed.. Thank you Jesus for showing me the way to you!

Q&A

Q: But Kevin what about your friends? Don’t you still kick it with them?

A: Unfortunately I have grown apart from my past friends before I came to know Christ, Dustin doesn’t game to much I don’t think now.. his Ego kind of got the better of him.. We don’t talk to much anymore.. him and the other bros I used to kick it with found it very strange how I was suddenly changed by Christ.. They are still running after what the World has to offer.. but I pray for them..

Q: You used to be the partier back in the day how about Hammerheads, still a good time right?

A: Just not my scene anymore.. I can barley get myself to go into a Bar these days.. Why do something that leads you vulnerable for attack by the enemy anyway?
1Peter 4:8-9 Be Sober! Be on the Alert! Your adversary the Devil is prowling around like a roaring lion, looking for anyone he can devour. Resist him, firm in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are being experienced by your brothers in the world. – Holman Christian Standard Bible

Q: Sounds like there is a God.. I remember you Kevin.. and you LOVED to party and smoke that weed!

A: YES! There is a God.. and if my story showed you that then praise God for working through me and getting another believer into the Family of Christ! I could of never did what I did without Christ.. He truly does fill your heart with what SHOULD be there.. I tried to find it through drugs, social status, and alcohol.. thing is NOTHING THIS WORLD HAS TO OFFER CAN FILL THAT HOLE IN YOUR HEART.. ONLY JESUS CHRIST CAN!

Q: This is intense Kevin, what do I have to do to get the life you have?

A: That’s the best thing about it.. Salvation is free all you have to do is confess Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, and you have eternal life.
John 3:16: For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believed in him shall not perish but have eternal life. – New International Bible
We were born with this thing called sin.. Sin.. is disobiedence to God.. to do something morally wrong.. Everyone does it.. Except Christ.. Christ never sinned not one time.. and what did he do? He gave his life on a cross for YOUR sins.. thats right.. if you so believe in him.. then he takes your sin.. Christ is the bridge for a relationship with our Heavenly Father..
So how about it? Confess your sins to Christ and accept him as your Savior.. You got nothing to lose.. in fact you have everything to gain!
If you give up your life for me, you will find it. Matthew 10:39

Q: Well Kevin I prayed about it last night and God didn’t change me..

A: Do you have faith? It takes faith for the Lord to work in your life, think about it.. Go and read the book of Matthew.. Jesus performed the miracles of healing through people’s faith in him. Hebrews 11:1 Now Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. –NIV
Remember this friend, pray for the desire to seek the Lord and he will deliver it to you.. It took more then a day to get where I am now in the relationship I have with Christ, trust the Lord and he will answer you day by day..

God acts on His watch.. not yours be patient and God will change your life for the better.. if that is what you so choose. He will fill that gap in your heart.. that you desperatly try to fill yourself.. This I know.

I feel I am being called to do something..
You know what..
So are you..
When will you act on it?

Grace and peace to you from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ