Running The Race

Sometimes you just laugh.. You laugh at situations you get into.. You laugh at the past.. you laugh at the present.. You just laugh..


This song was playing my in my head all though out my shift last night..
ELO has became a embedded sound in me.. thanks to my dearest Mother. It speaks a lot though. This song has some real meaning to me..

I can't get it out of my head.

Ever since I came to know Christ I have found myself constantly at change. When you begin to not care about what the world cares about you start to really appreciate and understand what Christ is doing inside you. When Christ shows you LOVE oh my gosh.. Nothing compares...

I have always thought I was the guy to show love, before I stepped foot into the mystery method I was always the nice guy. Then I found out thanks to a Green Day song that Nice Guys finished last.. Well that is what I thought..

Thing is Nice Guys don't finish last. Nice guys end up with Nice Girls. Girls you can be honest with, girls you can share a mature relationship with, and Girls that just admire you for who you are, not who you attempt to be.

Ah I have a lot to learn..
As I continue to live I continue to grow, I really have started to begin to know what Love is, what Love isn't. I in fact constantly analyze my emotions just to see if I do know what Love is, how to express it, how to show it. I have bitter selfishness that sometimes doesn't let go, until you let it go. What I am learning about everything is to just let go.


SIMPLE? hah yeah right. Let go of your anger when someone is verbally driving a stake in your mouth. Let go when you are consistently only looking at you're side of a two sided picture. Let go of your technology for awhile. TV, Facebook, Blogger..

It isn't easy, I found out the hard way what not letting go can do to you. Not letting go can leave you in a state on unhealthy confusion, frustration, jealously and envy.

What do I do? I let it go. I don't act on selfish desires, but that of Gods.


I can't tell you what is happening here, but something is happening.
Everything happens for a reason..
EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW IS HAPPENING FOR A REASON
Not trying to get ahead of myself, but dang.. after taking time to analyze things.. and continuing to take time to analyze things.. I feel like I see were all my problems were, lol I laugh at it now because it was so ignorant. I laugh now because I am started to realize what fueled emotional issues from the start..

I may just have to type something out, that really reflects my feelings. Just when you thought you knew what was up God throws something else at you about your past. When I tend to let out my feelings to God, seems like he tends to show me something I missed. Thank the Lord he shows me, otherwise I would of overlooked such crap.

I am Kevin Catt
I am 22 years Old
I have great friends
I have a wonderful family
I want to one day have a family of my own (Unless God sees otherwise)
I want God to direct my path.
I want to be more like Jesus Christ.

I will love uncondiatinally :-)

God has blessed me with so much
A great Job
Wonderful Mother
Wonderful Friends
Wonderful Followers of Christ
Pretty much a wonderful life.

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Trust.
Faith
Love =)